WOW.... well today particularly fasting is really difficult. I find when I'm fasting a lot of my monsters come out. Lord deliver me! Today started out pretty good, but towards the evening particularly around 4:30, my body physically got tired and boy is my mind crazy! We had a evening service tonight and I found that I couldn't focus, I thought about cooking meals and eating something, and I wanted to see my friends. Needless to say I couldn't focus on the sermon which seemed really good-based on crowd response. I found my heart was really offended also. The Lord's manifest presence was near the side of the wall I was by and people were manifesting, getting hit with joy, and good stuff happening. But man, I wanted nothing to do with it. I really wanted to go home. I really hope the Lord is doing something in me, because I am seeing all the gross stuff come out of me as I am being purified. Deliver me LORD from EVERYTHING that hinders love! I don't want to be offended when you come! I don't want to be good with you only on my good days! I want to love you with everything I have in all my seasons (Even if they change in one day!)
The Lord has always met me in my fasts though. I fast for multiple reasons this time, but fasting always seems to speed things up with Jesus. Perhaps the Lord is taking care of the offense-removal-process now, so that later I will be solid and standing with Jesus.
I look forward to what the Lord will do. My Spirit is willing, but my flesh is very very weak. You are my strength, I fast for you anyways.
But fasting is good! You should do it! Its SUPER rewarding, this is just a long comment of how I am feeling RIGHT NOW.
ENCOUNTER, ENCOUNTER, ENCOUNTER!
Reveal Jesus to us, Holy Spirit!
Father God, you are my Father, I love you, I need you.
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Saturday, February 26, 2011
Friday, February 25, 2011
Looking back to last year
Looking back at my journal from a year ago I was interested in what I was writing about this time last year. Apparently I didn't journal very much. I was definetly a note-taker, writing little notes here and there. But I did write about Luke 10:25-28. Particularly focused on v. 27, about loving the Lord with all my strength, soul, heart, and mind. What does that look like? I was wondering, what does it look like to love Him with all my strength? What does it look like to love Him with my whole mind? etc. Now I would also add, What does it look like to love Him with all my TIME? What does it look like to even love God? Its more than how it appears, its about my heart-connect. Learning to love. I need to let God love me in all those areas, to make space in those. To depend on His strength, to hear His heartbeat against His chest. To think upon Him. To be so captivated by the beauty of Jesus. To be fascinated with His character. I mean God -Yahweh- became a man!.... do we even realize the magnitude of this! I know I am only beginning to see it. I still don't fully grasp that! Lord teach us who you are! Give us the right paradigm of you!
In my journal from a year ago I was putting worship song under categories of heart, soul, mind. (I think I wanted to do this on my worship team @ ICS. But really it doesn't matter in regard to sub-categorizes. The best worship songs are about God, to God. I worship Jesus, not my heart, soul, mind or strength. But I wanted to sing songs that expressed me loving God with all my heart, soul, mind and strength. Which is awesome. Jesus has captivated my heart, my mind, my soul is with Him and Jesus is my strength. He has my attention, my emotions, my thoughts. They are all for Him. Because I am a garden enclosed for Jesus. Once again I declare that I am giving my mind, my soul, my strength, and my heart to Jesus.
I'll end this post with these beautiful lyrics about Jesus
The Beauty of This Man:
My heart is stirred by a noble theme
Bringing blessed words unto my King
Giving up my love as a sweet offering
Oh the beauty of this Man
For the sake of love, He left His Father's throne
Searching for a bride, bone of His bone
Such a humble kiss to make her dust His own
Oh the beauty of this Man
Jesus, I love You, I give You all my worship
Jesus, I love You, Your name is Wonderful
See His hands, His head, His feet and His side
They bear the marks of wrath, a pure sacrifice
To secure her love by giving up His life
Oh the beauty of this Man
She now faint with love, beckons Him to come
Establish righteousness as God's risen Song
On that glorious day, she'll marry her Fair One
Oh the beauty of this Man
In my journal from a year ago I was putting worship song under categories of heart, soul, mind. (I think I wanted to do this on my worship team @ ICS. But really it doesn't matter in regard to sub-categorizes. The best worship songs are about God, to God. I worship Jesus, not my heart, soul, mind or strength. But I wanted to sing songs that expressed me loving God with all my heart, soul, mind and strength. Which is awesome. Jesus has captivated my heart, my mind, my soul is with Him and Jesus is my strength. He has my attention, my emotions, my thoughts. They are all for Him. Because I am a garden enclosed for Jesus. Once again I declare that I am giving my mind, my soul, my strength, and my heart to Jesus.
I'll end this post with these beautiful lyrics about Jesus
The Beauty of This Man:
My heart is stirred by a noble theme
Bringing blessed words unto my King
Giving up my love as a sweet offering
Oh the beauty of this Man
For the sake of love, He left His Father's throne
Searching for a bride, bone of His bone
Such a humble kiss to make her dust His own
Oh the beauty of this Man
Jesus, I love You, I give You all my worship
Jesus, I love You, Your name is Wonderful
See His hands, His head, His feet and His side
They bear the marks of wrath, a pure sacrifice
To secure her love by giving up His life
Oh the beauty of this Man
She now faint with love, beckons Him to come
Establish righteousness as God's risen Song
On that glorious day, she'll marry her Fair One
Oh the beauty of this Man
Monday, February 7, 2011
20 questions for Mary
In my Excellencies of Christ class, one of our assignments was to write out 20 questions for Mary based on reading the 4 gospels. Thought I'd share what my 20 questions were:
1. What was Jesus like growing up?
2. How did you mother God? Was it difficult?
3. When did you worship Jesus?
4. Did you ever gorget Jesus was the Son of God?
5. Was it hard being the mother of Jesus?
6. Did people ever talk about you?
7. When did you become a Christian?
8. When did you recieve the baptism of Holy Spirit?
9. Did you sing often?
10. What were your other children like?
11. What was your family like that you came from before meeting Joseph?
12. What do you think of people praying to you?
13. What do you enjoy the most?
14. What does your laugh sound like?
15. What does Jesus' laugh sound like?
16. What is your favorite thing about Jesus?
17. What did you and Jesus talk about?
18. Did Jesus sing?
19. What did you do after Jesus went up to heaven?
20. Did you ever tell Jesus any stories,- Any bed-time stories?
1. What was Jesus like growing up?
2. How did you mother God? Was it difficult?
3. When did you worship Jesus?
4. Did you ever gorget Jesus was the Son of God?
5. Was it hard being the mother of Jesus?
6. Did people ever talk about you?
7. When did you become a Christian?
8. When did you recieve the baptism of Holy Spirit?
9. Did you sing often?
10. What were your other children like?
11. What was your family like that you came from before meeting Joseph?
12. What do you think of people praying to you?
13. What do you enjoy the most?
14. What does your laugh sound like?
15. What does Jesus' laugh sound like?
16. What is your favorite thing about Jesus?
17. What did you and Jesus talk about?
18. Did Jesus sing?
19. What did you do after Jesus went up to heaven?
20. Did you ever tell Jesus any stories,- Any bed-time stories?
Monday, January 24, 2011
Prophetic Singing Class
He-Yo!
Well! What a busy semester this is going to be!! I thought I'd write about what I'm learning in my prophetic singing class. I am fortunate to have had some voice training before coming here, so things like technique aren't totally new to me. Today in class we talked a lot about vocal health. Here is what I've learned:
1. Tiredness first shows up in your voice, so get sufficient sleep. (For me, this will be on weekends. perhaps) You want to be able to give strength to the worship team.
2. Hydration! You want to drink half of your body weight in oz a day. If you drink coffee/tea that is diuretic you need to take 2x as much water.
3. Eat a balanced diet. "Don't eat out of a box". Put God-made food into a God-made body for the result as God-intended. For study times when I'm craving, eat fruit first, then if I absolutely have to, go the sugar route. When you are craving cheese, that usually means your body is craving Omega-3's. (eh... we'll see how this pans out...)
4. Don't scream, sing. Don't clear throat. Philosophy for singing [only], "If it feels good- DO IT!" and if it doesn't feel good, don't do that.
A lot of this I actually learned from my voice teacher. I felt so informed!! Many thanks to her!!!
Hope this is fun for you who are wanting to learn what I'm learning in this class!
Blessings, Blessings, Blessings!
Please pray for me with school, right now it like I hit the ground running-which is good, just caught me off guard. :) WeEl. Much love,
Rebekah
Well! What a busy semester this is going to be!! I thought I'd write about what I'm learning in my prophetic singing class. I am fortunate to have had some voice training before coming here, so things like technique aren't totally new to me. Today in class we talked a lot about vocal health. Here is what I've learned:
1. Tiredness first shows up in your voice, so get sufficient sleep. (For me, this will be on weekends. perhaps) You want to be able to give strength to the worship team.
2. Hydration! You want to drink half of your body weight in oz a day. If you drink coffee/tea that is diuretic you need to take 2x as much water.
3. Eat a balanced diet. "Don't eat out of a box". Put God-made food into a God-made body for the result as God-intended. For study times when I'm craving, eat fruit first, then if I absolutely have to, go the sugar route. When you are craving cheese, that usually means your body is craving Omega-3's. (eh... we'll see how this pans out...)
4. Don't scream, sing. Don't clear throat. Philosophy for singing [only], "If it feels good- DO IT!" and if it doesn't feel good, don't do that.
A lot of this I actually learned from my voice teacher. I felt so informed!! Many thanks to her!!!
Hope this is fun for you who are wanting to learn what I'm learning in this class!
Blessings, Blessings, Blessings!
Please pray for me with school, right now it like I hit the ground running-which is good, just caught me off guard. :) WeEl. Much love,
Rebekah
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
2nd Semester!
Hooray! I've begun my second semester at IHOPU, and now its almost all music!! WOOOT!!
It is so great to be learning music and growing in this area! Especially since music is in the heart of God. I was made musically and made for music. (Speaking creates soundwaves and music is a bunch of soundwaves, right?)
I am so excited to grow in this expression of worship! I love singing to Jesus and creating beauty through sound and offering it to Him. I am so blessed by excellent teachers and people who draw my attention to Jesus.
Because in Heaven angels are singing day and night and worshiping Him non-stop and we pray, "On earth as it is in heaven" it is so incredible to me to feel like I am equipping myself to equip others to worship together our Lord God. I am so blessed!
My classes are such:
Harp & Bowl sets (I am on a team), and time in the PR.
Keys II (Piano, theory, ear training)
Prophetic singing
Choir
Sound for Everyone (Soundboard stuff)
FMA Practicum
Excellencies of Christ (Allen Hood)
Life of a Worshiper
Such great looking classes!
I've only taken Keys II today, but my homework is to ask the Lord questions about this year and what he wants me to focus on and to practice Glover's hand signs for Do-Re-Me-Fa-So-La-Ti-Do
I will be practicing at least 30 min a day.
So I am no longer at the GPR prayer room in the mornings, instead I have "lab prayer room" where I am on a team at 8-11:50 am, and then in the GPR in the late afternoons.
I am very excited for this semester! All classes are good, a lot more homework than 1st semester. I hope I can figure out a good life schedule for this great up and here semester! I really am enjoying it so far!
It is so great to be learning music and growing in this area! Especially since music is in the heart of God. I was made musically and made for music. (Speaking creates soundwaves and music is a bunch of soundwaves, right?)
I am so excited to grow in this expression of worship! I love singing to Jesus and creating beauty through sound and offering it to Him. I am so blessed by excellent teachers and people who draw my attention to Jesus.
Because in Heaven angels are singing day and night and worshiping Him non-stop and we pray, "On earth as it is in heaven" it is so incredible to me to feel like I am equipping myself to equip others to worship together our Lord God. I am so blessed!
My classes are such:
Harp & Bowl sets (I am on a team), and time in the PR.
Keys II (Piano, theory, ear training)
Prophetic singing
Choir
Sound for Everyone (Soundboard stuff)
FMA Practicum
Excellencies of Christ (Allen Hood)
Life of a Worshiper
Such great looking classes!
I've only taken Keys II today, but my homework is to ask the Lord questions about this year and what he wants me to focus on and to practice Glover's hand signs for Do-Re-Me-Fa-So-La-Ti-Do
I will be practicing at least 30 min a day.
So I am no longer at the GPR prayer room in the mornings, instead I have "lab prayer room" where I am on a team at 8-11:50 am, and then in the GPR in the late afternoons.
I am very excited for this semester! All classes are good, a lot more homework than 1st semester. I hope I can figure out a good life schedule for this great up and here semester! I really am enjoying it so far!
Monday, November 22, 2010
Any ideas?
Hey this is just a quickie. But I was wondering what you guys would like to hear about? What would you like me to blog about? I'll be back but I'm on a public library right now and don't have much time left.
Till next time
Till next time
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Blitz review
Hey Hey!
I am back from California!
You can read the previous blog for more info but basically IHOPU sent 300 students to Southern California to contend for revival, to encourage the Bride, and to also get people ready for the FIGHT! conference. I was gone 10 days. While we were out there 300 students stayed in the Prayer Room praying hardcore for us and California. I heard that there was some attack even on the intercessors here and boy did their prayers make a difference! We had good air coverage!!
We took 5 buses (40 hour bus ride!) and went to 8 different locations in southern Cali. My group ended up going to Santa Barbara! I got to see the Gupta's and G&G Trelstad!! So great! I miss them!
I was in a place called Isla Vista, or IV; its by UCSB. I heard that it is one of the top party schools/locations in the USA. We got in Friday night around 11pm and we all walked on the streets with our luggage while everyone else was partying. It was a funny sight, I wish I had it on camera! We got to 'hang out' with the people on the party street and tried telling them about Jesus. The location we stayed at is known as the "Jesus Burger House" to the locals. Every Saturday evening this house (filled with Christian students: 8 girls on top floor, 8 guys on lower level) give out free Burgers and use that to minister God's love to the people. The folks we stayed with were so great, they really love Jesus! We spent our time encouraging the body and praying in their prayer shed right behind the Jesus Burger house. The Holy Spirit broke out like a bomb in that room! Healings were occurring, there was a spirit of prophecy, God's joy and delight was breaking out, deliverences... It was a party!
When we first got there we went to a conference the IV church was putting on, then we served the pastor by cleaning his house, praying in the prayer shed, hanging with the body- which usually looked like prophesying over each other, getting 'drunk in the Spirit', worship, and chats and enjoyment of eachother.
We got to go to UCSB for 45 min and went out in twos and talked to people about Jesus. There was this one man who I got to talk with for awhile, it was a really good learning experience for me because I had not really done anything like that! The Lord was teaching me as I went, but hearing testimonies from the other groups it is a crazy truth that not as many people as I would think have any idea of who Jesus is. (But heck, I've been learning myself!) Many people haven't even heard of Jesus.
Then we went to the Fight! conference.
It was awesome.
The speakers there made me tremble, in an excellent way. (Mike Bickle once asked, "when was the last time you heard a sermon that made you tremble? When was the last time you gave a message that made someone tremble?) The speakers were Lou Engle, Jackie Pullinger, Jessie Engle, Dick Eastman, Loren Cummingham, and Brian Kim. Wow! Every time... and they were funny!
The Lord has been solidifying me on this trip.I've been stepping out in faith and have been learning to have confidence in His Love. God is soooooooooooo faithful!!!!!!! Amen! He is so good, so joyful- Jesus is the happiest man alive! God is so just, so excellent, so terrifying, so comforting, so Holy, so peaceful, and so much more! He's so BIG! He's got everything I need!
I will post more on the Blitz very soon! With some good stories!~Hope this is a good teaser!
Oh and the testimonies!!! Next Blog for sure.
I am back from California!
You can read the previous blog for more info but basically IHOPU sent 300 students to Southern California to contend for revival, to encourage the Bride, and to also get people ready for the FIGHT! conference. I was gone 10 days. While we were out there 300 students stayed in the Prayer Room praying hardcore for us and California. I heard that there was some attack even on the intercessors here and boy did their prayers make a difference! We had good air coverage!!
We took 5 buses (40 hour bus ride!) and went to 8 different locations in southern Cali. My group ended up going to Santa Barbara! I got to see the Gupta's and G&G Trelstad!! So great! I miss them!
I was in a place called Isla Vista, or IV; its by UCSB. I heard that it is one of the top party schools/locations in the USA. We got in Friday night around 11pm and we all walked on the streets with our luggage while everyone else was partying. It was a funny sight, I wish I had it on camera! We got to 'hang out' with the people on the party street and tried telling them about Jesus. The location we stayed at is known as the "Jesus Burger House" to the locals. Every Saturday evening this house (filled with Christian students: 8 girls on top floor, 8 guys on lower level) give out free Burgers and use that to minister God's love to the people. The folks we stayed with were so great, they really love Jesus! We spent our time encouraging the body and praying in their prayer shed right behind the Jesus Burger house. The Holy Spirit broke out like a bomb in that room! Healings were occurring, there was a spirit of prophecy, God's joy and delight was breaking out, deliverences... It was a party!
When we first got there we went to a conference the IV church was putting on, then we served the pastor by cleaning his house, praying in the prayer shed, hanging with the body- which usually looked like prophesying over each other, getting 'drunk in the Spirit', worship, and chats and enjoyment of eachother.
We got to go to UCSB for 45 min and went out in twos and talked to people about Jesus. There was this one man who I got to talk with for awhile, it was a really good learning experience for me because I had not really done anything like that! The Lord was teaching me as I went, but hearing testimonies from the other groups it is a crazy truth that not as many people as I would think have any idea of who Jesus is. (But heck, I've been learning myself!) Many people haven't even heard of Jesus.
Then we went to the Fight! conference.
It was awesome.
The speakers there made me tremble, in an excellent way. (Mike Bickle once asked, "when was the last time you heard a sermon that made you tremble? When was the last time you gave a message that made someone tremble?) The speakers were Lou Engle, Jackie Pullinger, Jessie Engle, Dick Eastman, Loren Cummingham, and Brian Kim. Wow! Every time... and they were funny!
The Lord has been solidifying me on this trip.I've been stepping out in faith and have been learning to have confidence in His Love. God is soooooooooooo faithful!!!!!!! Amen! He is so good, so joyful- Jesus is the happiest man alive! God is so just, so excellent, so terrifying, so comforting, so Holy, so peaceful, and so much more! He's so BIG! He's got everything I need!
I will post more on the Blitz very soon! With some good stories!~Hope this is a good teaser!
Oh and the testimonies!!! Next Blog for sure.
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