November newsletter

In my Beholding His Majesty class we have been studying attributes of God. We are reading A.W. Tozer’s book “Attributes of God, volumes 1& 2” while also having a teaching on attributes of God and the “Beholding” aspect with a combination of contemplative meditation. 

I really enjoy reading any of Tozer’s writings; the Lord has given him experiential wisdom. Plus he writes in a way I understand. J Between the 2 volumes Tozer goes through 20 attribures of God. SOOO good, I recommend you read it! Everything rises and falls on the knowledge of God. According to the revelation of God’s nature and person in our lives so will be our worship. Tozer writes in the preface, “It is utterly necessary that we know this God, this One that John wrote about…this One that theology talks about and this One that we’re sent to preach and teach about. It is absolutely, utterly and critically necessary that we know this One, for you see, man fell when he lost his right concept of God (3, The Attributes of God, v I).”

In my Life of David class, we are reading Mike Bickle’s After God’s Own Heart. It is all about, like David, going after God’s own heart and what that means and what it looks like by looking through the life of David. It is so good! Mike Bickle has spent some time meditating on this stuff, you can tell.  My heart has been growing and yearning to have this type of heart as I’ve been reading it. It is so encouraging and equipping! Mike wants to encourage people that we can go hard after God too. I have been getting a lot of revelation about the life of David just reading it. Its helped me gain comprehensive understanding and of the life of David. David’s life is so powerful, there is so much detail that I have just read over in the past.

The Attributes of God: Volume 1- A Journey Into the Father’s Heart; Volume 2- Deeper Into the Father’s Heart; A.W. Tozer 2007 $16 each (there is a study guide with them)

ISBN:

V1:978-1-60066-129-7; V2:978-1-60066-138-9

After God’s own Heart; Mike Bickle; 2004, Christian Life/Biblical teaching

ISBN:978-1-59979-530-0

I mentioned in my last newsletter that the IHOP community went on a 21-day fast (some are going until 11/11/11). It was a really good fast, meaning I really wanted to do this fast. In fact many people felt this way! That is only by the power of the Holy Spirit! J During this time the Lord gave me a lot of dreams, and I realized again that God can speak through dreams and often does. So I decided to take my dreams more seriously-testing them of course- and I am learning how to dialogue with the Lord about them…still learning! J  Through some dreams He’s shown me how to pray about some things. I like dreams a lot! J

During the fast I was asking for breakthrough, for healing/fire anointing –not completely sure what that means, but He’s got it and I want it!- & knowledge & love of God. He pulled through! He brought up some stuff, man!

The Lord is still doing things in me and bringing up areas to burn with His fire of love, so nothing will 

hinder love. PTL!!

FELLOWSHIP prayer

This isn't mine, its Mike Bickle but his copyright is the right to copy so... I was praying this this morning, its really good, and it takes time but already my heart is realigning with God. This is an acronym to FELLOWSHIP, you can get it off his website to: mikebickle.org

Here's a short version, look below this for more depth: 

F-fear of God

E-Endurance

L-love

L- light of glory (Ex. 33:18)

O-Onething life focus (Lk 10:42; Ps. 27:4)

W-count me worthy (2 Thes. 1:11)

S-speech

H- humility

I- insight with intimacy (wisdom)

P- peace and joy

II. TEN PRAYERS TO RECEIVE STRENGTH IN THE INNER MAN: F-E-L-L-O-W-S-H-I-P   

16 

 To be strengthened with might through His Spirit in the inner man… (Eph. 3:16)  

A. F- Fear of God: Father, release the spirit of the fear of God into my heart. Release the lightning 

and thunder from Your Throne to strike my heart (Rev. 4:5) with Your majesty, that I might live 

in awe before You. Release Your presence and holy dread that makes me tremble before You. 

Unite my heart to your heart and Word and cause me to delight in the fear of God. 

40 

 I will put My fear in their hearts so that they will not depart from Me. (Jer. 32:40)  

13 

 The Lord…you shall hallow; let Him be your fear, and let Him be your dread. (Isa. 8:13)  

11 

Unite my heart (to Your heart and Word) to fear Your name. (Ps. 86:11)  

3 

 His delight is in the fear of the LORD… (Isa. 11:3)  

B. E- Endurance (patience): Father, strengthen my spirit with endurance that I may do Your will 

with zeal and diligence and that I not quit pursuing the deep things of God. Impart endurance for 

fasting. Direct my heart into the endurance in which Jesus walked. This is a prayer for strength to 

follow through in my commitments to God and to fulfill my ministry calling when it is difficult.  

11 

Being strengthened with all power…may have great endurance and patience… (Col. 1:11 NIV) 

5 

 May the Lord direct your hearts into…the patience (endurance) of Christ. (2 Thes. 3:5)  

1. It takes the power of God to not quit. If you do not quit in your fervent pursuit you win.  

17 

 It was written, "Zeal for Thy house will consume me (Jesus)." (Jn. 2:17, NAS)  

9 

 Zeal for Your house has eaten me (David) up…10 I wept and chastened my soul with 

fasting that became my reproach. 11 I made sackcloth my garment… (Ps. 69:9-11)  

2. Lord, give me Your zeal as You gave it to Phineas.  

11 

 Phinehas…was zealous with My zeal among them… (Num. 25:11)  

C. L- Love: Father, pour out Your love into my heart by releasing the influences of the Spirit to give 

me revelation of Your love for me, that it may overflow in love back to You and to others.  

5 

 The love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit... (Rom. 5:5)  

9 

 I pray, that your love may abound still more…in knowledge and all discernment. (Phil. 1:9)  

5 

 May the Lord direct your hearts into the love of God… (2 Thes. 3:5)  

6 

 Set Me (Jesus) as a seal on your heart…for love is as strong as death…its flames are flames 

of fire…7 Many waters cannot quench love, nor can floods drown it. (Song 8:6-7)  

1. Father, impart Your love for Jesus in my heart (Jn. 17:26). I agree with Jesus’ prophecy 

(Mt. 22:37) to receive grace to love God with all my heart and soul and mind.  

26 

 …That the love with which You loved Me may be in them… (Jn. 17:26)  

37 

 You shall love the Lord…with all your heart…soul…and mind. (Mt. 22:37)  

2. Father, allow me to comprehend Jesus’ love for me and to abide in it (stay connect to it).  

18 

 That you…may be able to comprehend…what is the width and length and depth and 

height…19 to know (experience) the love (affection) of Christ… (Eph. 3:18-19)  

9 

 As the Father loved Me, I also have loved you; abide in My love. (Jn. 15:9)  

3. Let me see and love myself through Your eyes. Thank you for who I am to You.  

13 

 You formed my inward parts; You covered me in my mother's womb. 14 I will praise 

You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; marvelous are Your works, and that my 

soul knows very well. 15 My frame was not hidden from You, when I was made in 

secret, and skillfully wrought… (Ps. 139:13-15)  

4. Father, “I agree with Jesus’ command and prophecy in Mt. 22:39 that I will love others.” 

Let me abound in love by seeing what You see and feeling what You feel about others.  

39 

 …You shall love your neighbor as yourself. (Mt. 22:39)  

12 

 May the Lord make you increase and abound in love to one another… (1 Thes. 3:12)  

D. L- Light of glory: Father, let me see the light of Your glory or to encounter the “glory realm”. 

Give me Holy Spirit encounters (dreams, visions, angelic visitations, manifestations of light, fire, 

wind) as You gave to Moses, Isaiah, Ezekiel and John (Ex. 33; 34:29-30; Isa. 6; Ezek. 1; Rev. 1).   

6 

 A great light from heaven shone around me…8 He said to me, “I am Jesus of Nazareth…” 

11 I could not see for the glory of that light…I came to Damascus. (Acts 22:6-11)  

18 

 And he (Moses) said, "Please, show me Your glory." (Ex. 33:18)  

6 

 Lord, lift up the light of Your countenance upon us. (Ps. 4:6)  

16 

 His countenance was like the sun shining in its strength. (Rev. 1:16)  

3 

 Send out Your light and truth! Let them lead me…bring me to Your holy hill… (Ps. 43:3)  

3 

 Restore us, O God; cause Your face to shine, and we shall be saved! (Ps. 80:3)  

51 

 You shall see heaven open, and the angels of God ascending and descending… (Jn. 1:51) 

17 

 I pray, open his eyes that he may see. Then the LORD opened the eyes of the young 

man…the mountain was full of horses and chariots of fire all around Elisha. (2 Kgs. 6:17) 

E. O- One thing life focus: Father, strengthen me to maintain a life in Your word with desire for it. 

When I lose this focus, send Your word to deliver me as You did for the saints at Ephesus, Sardis 

and Laodicea (Rev. 2:4-5; 3:1-3; 3:15-20). Alert me when I need to recommit my schedule and 

priorities to live as a person of one thing who regularly sits at Your feet, as Mary of Bethany did. 

Busyness, guilt and despair cause fervent believers to drift from their fervency.  

42 

 But one thing is needed, and Mary has chosen that good part… (Lk. 10:42)  

4 

 One thing I have desired…all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of the Lord. (Ps. 27:4)  

8 

 I have set the Lord always before me…He is at my right hand I shall not be moved. (Ps. 16:8) 

F. W- Count me worthy (faithfulness unto fullness): Father, strengthen me to walk in a way that 

You would consider me worthy to walk in my highest calling and escape all compromise that I 

might stand before You victorious in full obedience.  

11 

 We pray always for you that our God would count you worthy of this calling, and fulfill all 

the good pleasure of His goodness and the work of faith with power… (2 Thes. 1:11)  

36 

 Watch…and pray always that you may be counted worthy (prepared) to escape all these 

things (sins of v. 34)…to stand (in victory) before the Son of Man. (Lk. 21:36)  

1. No one is “worthy” to receive forgiveness which is a free gift because of Jesus’ 

worthiness. Rather, we are to have a worthy response to God by living free of 

compromise, thus prepared or worthy to walk in the fullness of our calling. 

2. The opposite of having a worthy response is to waste or receive God’s grace in vain.  

1 

 We…plead with you not to receive the grace of God in vain. (2 Cor. 6:1)  

3. Help keep me free of compromise that I would walk blameless body, soul and spirit.  

23 

 May the God of peace sanctify you completely; may your spirit, soul, and body be 

preserved blameless (without compromise) at the coming of our Lord… (1 Thes. 5:23)  

13 

 That He may establish your hearts blameless in holiness before God… (1 Thes. 3:13)  

4. We agree with David’s prayers to walk in purity.  

10 

 Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit in me. (Ps. 51:10)  

17 

 Your people…offer willingly to You. 18 O LORD…keep this forever in the intent of 

the thoughts of the heart of Your people, and fix their heart toward You. 19 And give 

my son Solomon a loyal heart to keep Your commandments… (1 Chr 29:17-19)  

1 

 Save me, O God! The waters have come up to my neck. 2 I sink in deep mire, where there 

is no standing; I have come into deep waters…the floods overflow me. (Ps. 69:1-2)  

5. We agree with David’s holy resolve to set nothing impure before his eyes.  

3 

 I will set nothing wicked before my eyes… (Ps. 101:3) 

1 

 I have made a covenant with my eyes; why should I look on a woman? (Job 31:1)  

6. Lead me from the storm of temptation, rescue me from its deep waters, and cleanse me 

from secret faults (Ps. 19:12; 69:1-2). Search me and show me my heart (Ps. 139:23).  

13 

 Do not lead us into temptation, but deliver us from the evil one. (Mt. 6:13)  

15 

 That You should keep them from the evil one. (Jn. 17:15) 

12 

 Who can understand his errors? Cleanse me from secret (unperceived) faults. (Ps. 19:12)  

23 

 Search me, O God, and know (reveal) my heart; try me, and know my anxieties…  

(Ps. 139:23)  

G. S- Speech: Father, set a guard over my lips. Free me from defensive, angry and foolish speech (Eph. 

4:29; 5:4). Sustained communion with God requires restrained conversation with man.  

2 

 If one does not stumble in word, he is a perfect man, able to bridle the whole body. (Jas. 3:2)  

3 

 Set a guard, O LORD, over my mouth; keep watch over the door of my lips. (Ps. 141:3)  

14 

 Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable... (Ps. 19:14)  

1. The Spirit is quenched in our life by unwholesome speech (filthy, foolish, coarse jesting).   

29 

 Let no corrupt word proceed out of your mouth, but what is good for necessary 

edification, that it may impart grace to the hearers. 30 Do not grieve the Holy Spirit… 

5:4 

 Neither filthiness, nor foolish talking, nor coarse jesting, which are not fitting… 

(Eph. 4:29-5:4)  

2. I set my heart to not sin with my speech (Ps. 17:3; 39:1). 

3 

 I have purposed that my mouth shall not transgress. (Ps. 17:3)  

1 

 I said, "I will guard my ways, lest I sin with my tongue; I will restrain my mouth with 

a muzzle, while the wicked are before me." (Ps 39:1)  

H. H- Humility: Jesus, I want to learn from You how to walk in lowliness. I commit to take Your 

yoke of humility (lowliness of heart) on my life in my attitudes, speech, and actions. Give me 

wisdom on how to carry my heart in humility. 

29 

 Take My yoke…and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart… (Mt. 11:29) 

3 

 Let nothing be done through selfish ambition or conceit, but in lowliness of mind let each esteem 

others better than himself…5 Let this mind be in you which was in Christ… (Phil. 2:3-5)  

I. I- Insight unto intimacy (wisdom): Father give me insight into Your Word, will, and ways. Give 

me wisdom on how to live before You that I may walk in intimacy (union) with You.  

17 

 May give to you the spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of Him… (Eph. 1:17)  

9 

 Ask that you may be filled with the knowledge of His will in all wisdom and spiritual 

understanding; 10 that you may have a walk worthy of the Lord… (Col. 1:9-10)  

1. Father, “Give me insight that I may walk under the Spirit’s leadership that we may 

partner together in every issue in my life including my finances, schedule, emotions, 

circumstances, physical body (diet, health), relationships (in the home, office, ministry), 

my future, fears, addictions, etc. Give me new ideas in each area of my life”.  

26 

 The Holy Spirit…will teach you all things... (Jn. 14:26)  

2. Father, I long to walk in the fullness of Your will in every area of my life.   

12 

 Epaphras…always laboring fervently for you in prayers that you may stand perfect 

and complete in all the will of God. (Col. 4:12)  

3. Let me know the secrets of Your heart (Ps. 25:14). What are You thinking and feeling?  

4 

 Show me Your ways…teach me Your paths. 5 Lead me in Your truth…14 The secret 

of the LORD is with those who fear Him… (Ps. 25:4-5, 14)  

4. We ask for the Spirit’s insight into God’s end-time purposes (Dan. 11:35; 12:10), 

eternity, the New Jerusalem, the judgment seat of Christ, and hell.  

13 

 The Spirit…will guide you into all truth; He will tell you things to come. (Jn. 16:13)  

22 

 O Daniel, I have now come forth to give you skill to understand. (Dan. 9:22)  

20 

 The anger of the LORD (end-time judgments) will not turn back until He has 

executed and performed the thoughts of His heart. In the latter days you will 

understand it perfectly. (Jer. 23:20)  

J. P- Peace and Joy: Father, strengthen my heart with supernatural peace and joy that overpowers 

fear and anxiety that I would not sin. Sin grows fastest when fear or anxiety works strongly in us.  

7 

 The peace of God…will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. (Phil. 4:7) 

13 

 Now may the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that you may abound 

in hope (confidence) by the power of the Holy Spirit. (Rom. 15:13)  

16 

 Now may the Lord of peace Himself give you peace always in every way. (2 Thes. 3:16)  

Back to school, top 10 IHOP songs

Hello! I'm back on the grid!
I had an excellent summer in Utah with my family and now I'm back at IHOPU. Things are a little crazy, but good. I'm in transition.
Anyways I thought I'd make a top 10 list. This list is about my top 10 IHOP songs that have impacted me recently [past couple years] (most of IHOP's music has been hitting me so I have to limit myself to 10; this is also subtracting oracles)

1. Dove's eyes (revolutionized "worship time" when I first heard it years ago)
2. Baptize my heart (all of misty's songs really)
3. Strong Love (All of Jon thurlow)
4. Only One (brandon Hampton)check this out!
5. all of the Joy cd
6. Lord I know you love me- Jon Thurlow
7. Dark but Lovely (sarah Edwards)
8. Shekinah Glory
9. Justin Rizzo's songs/sets
10. And this song by Jaye thomas (don't know the title but here are the lyrics- AWESOME!
I believe you move at the sound of my voice, I believe yo move at the sound of my voice, I believe you move at the sound of my voice, I believe you move at the sound of my voice.You heard my cry, and you answered me.You heard my cry, and you answered me.I love the Lord, for He heard heard my cry, He delivered me, I love the Lord, for He heard heard my cry, He delivered me, I love the Lord, for He heard heard my cry, He delivered me, from my fears.
You lifted me up, higher and higher.
So shall I be saved from my enemies.
You are the great deliver, you are the great deliver, you are the great deliver of my soul.

soooo excellent!

but really everyone here is so good and talented and they love the Lord. They give everything for the Lord.
I'm inspired!

Song of Solomn

OH MY! This is by St. John of the Cross, and I HAVE to share it with you. All of his stuff is good!! This is his version of Song of Solomon. Check it out!
SONG OF THE SOUL AND THE BRIDEGROOM
I
THE BRIDE
Where hast Thou hidden Thyself,
And abandoned me in my groaning, O my Beloved?
Thou hast fled like the hart,
Having wounded me.
I ran after Thee, crying; but Thou wert gone.
II
O shepherds, you who go
Through the sheepcots up the hill,
If you shall see Him
Whom I love the most,
Tell Him I languish, suffer, and die.
III
In search of my Love
I will go over mountains and strands;
I will gather no flowers,
I will fear no wild beasts;
And pass by the mighty and the frontiers.
IV
O groves and thickets
Planted by the hand of the Beloved;
O verdant meads
Enamelled with flowers,
Tell me, has He passed by you?
V
ANSWER OF THE CREATURES
A thousand graces diffusing
He passed through the groves in haste,
And merely regarding them
As He passed
Clothed them with His beauty.
VI
THE BRIDE
Oh! who can heal me?
Give me at once Thyself,
Send me no more
A messenger
Who cannot tell me what I wish.
VII
All they who serve are telling me
Of Thy unnumbered graces;
And all wound me more and more,
And something leaves me dying,
I know not what, of which they are darkly speaking.
VIII
But how thou perseverest, O life,
Not living where thou livest;
The arrows bring death
Which thou receivest
From thy conceptions of the Beloved.
IX
Why, after wounding
This heart, hast Thou not healed it?
And why, after stealing it,
Hast Thou thus abandoned it,
And not carried away the stolen prey?
X
Quench Thou my troubles,
For no one else can soothe them;
And let mine eyes behold Thee,
For thou art their light,
And I will keep them for Thee alone.
XI
Reveal Thy presence,
And let the vision and Thy beauty kill me,
Behold the malady
Of love is incurable
Except in Thy presence and before Thy face.
XII
O crystal well!
Oh that on Thy silvered surface
Thou wouldest mirror forth at once
Those eyes desired
Which are outlined in my heart!
XIII
Turn them away, O my Beloved!
I am on the wing:

THE BRIDEGROOM
Return, My Dove!
The wounded hart
Looms on the hill
In the air of thy flight and is refreshed.
XIV
My Beloved is the mountains,
The solitary wooded valleys,
The strange islands,
The roaring torrents,
The whisper of the amorous gales;
XV
The tranquil night
At the approaches of the dawn,
The silent music,
The murmuring solitude,
The supper which revives, and enkindles love.
XVI
Catch us the foxes,
For our vineyard hath flourished;
While of roses
We make a nosegay,
And let no one appear on the hill.
XVII
O killing north wind, cease!
Come, south wind, that awakenest love!
Blow through my garden,
And let its odours flow,
And the Beloved shall feed among the flowers.
XVIII
O nymphs of Judea!
While amid the flowers and the rose-trees
The amber sends forth its perfume,
Tarry in the suburbs,
And touch not our thresholds.
XIX
Hide thyself, O my Beloved!
Turn Thy face to the mountains,
Do not speak,
But regard the companions
Of her who is travelling amidst strange islands.
XX
THE BRIDEGROOM
Light-winged birds,
Lions, fawns, bounding does,
Mountains, valleys, strands,
Waters, winds, heat,
And the terrors that keep watch by night;
XXI
By the soft lyres
And the siren strains, I adjure you,
Let your fury cease,
And touch not the wall,
That the bride may sleep in greater security.
XXII
The bride has entered
The pleasant and desirable garden,
And there reposes to her heart's content;
Her neck reclining
On the sweet arms of the Beloved.
XXIII
Beneath the apple-tree
There wert thou betrothed;
There I gave thee My hand,
And thou wert redeemed
Where thy mother was corrupted.
XXIV
THE BRIDE
Our bed is of flowers
By dens of lions encompassed,
Hung with purple,
Made in peace,
And crowned with a thousand shields of gold.
XXV
In Thy footsteps
The young ones run Thy way;
At the touch of the fire
And by the spiced wine,
The divine balsam flows.
XXVI
In the inner cellar
Of my Beloved have I drunk; and when I went forth
Over all the plain
I knew nothing,
And lost the flock I followed before.
XXVII
There He gave me His breasts,
There He taught me the science full of sweetness.
And there I gave to Him
Myself without reserve;
There I promised to be His bride.
XXVIII
My soul is occupied,
And all my substance in His service;
Now I guard no flock,
Nor have I any other employment:
My sole occupation is love.
XXIX
If, then, on the common land
I am no longer seen or found,
You will say that I am lost;
That, being enamoured,
I lost myself; and yet was found.
XXX
Of emeralds, and of flowers
In the early morning gathered,
We will make the garlands,
Flowering in Thy love,
And bound together with one hair of my head.
XXXI
By that one hair
Thou hast observed fluttering on my neck,
And on my neck regarded,
Thou wert captivated;
And wounded by one of my eyes.
XXXII
When Thou didst regard me,
Thine eyes imprinted in me Thy grace:
For this didst Thou love me again,
And thereby mine eyes did merit
To adore what in Thee they saw
XXXIII
Despise me not,
For if I was swarthy once
Thou canst regard me now;
Since Thou hast regarded me,
Grace and beauty hast Thou given me.
XXXIV
THE BRIDEGROOM
The little white dove
Has returned to the ark with the bough;
And now the turtle-dove
Its desired mate
On the green banks has found.
XXXV
In solitude she lived,
And in solitude built her nest;
And in solitude, alone
Hath the Beloved guided her,
In solitude also wounded with love.
XXXVI
THE BRIDE
Let us rejoice, O my Beloved!
Let us go forth to see ourselves in Thy beauty,
To the mountain and the hill,
Where the pure water flows:
Let us enter into the heart of the thicket.
XXXVII
We shall go at once
To the deep caverns of the rock
Which are all secret,
There we shall enter in
And taste of the new wine of the pomegranate.
XXXVIII
There thou wilt show me
That which my soul desired;
And there Thou wilt give at once,
O Thou, my life!
That which Thou gavest me the other day.
XXXIX
The breathing of the air,
The song of the sweet nightingale,
The grove and its beauty
In the serene night,
With the flame that consumes, and gives no pains.
XL
None saw it;
Neither did Aminadab appear
The siege was intermitted,
And the cavalry dismounted
At the sight of the waters.

Ps. 16- boundary lines

Psalm 16:5 O LORD, You are the portion of my inheritance and my cup;
         You maintain my lot.
 ⁶ The lines have fallen to me in pleasant places;
         Yes, I have a good inheritance.
NIV says boundary lines

Being in the season of wilderness I've been noticing that the Lord has been hedging me in and keeping me close. (Thank you Jesus!)
The word "boundary" caught my attention. I have limits. I have a boundary line that if I pass over means I won't be in my territory. But the Lord has set my lines in pleasant places. He has put me in a good place, even if I feel "hemmed in" its really good there. And if the Lord is my portion and He maintains my lot, then its beautiful!  In Him is everything, and He is BIG, transcendent, mysterious. The place I'm living in has too be good then.
I was also thinking about the Hebrew word Ch'sed- which means mercy or softening and taking the blow of someone else's stupidity. The picture is a stork with her little storkettes. The baby storks wander into a thorn bush, mama stork walks into the middle of it and plucks out her breast feather and pads the edges of the circle of thorns so that the storkettes don't hurt themselves. (Storks really do this). So there are missing feathers and probably blood on the chest of this stork. Pretty cool huh? The stork didn't take them out of the thornbush, but took her own feathers.

My boundary lines will fall in good places, because the Lord set them. Even when I leave those, we comes after me. Praise God! Ironic though that He always hedges me in using thorns so that I have no where else to go but to Him. God is so great! He is so wanting my affections. And yours!

End of school year

Well, it is the end of my first school year at IHOPU. I'm sad its over, but I still have 3 more years here so I'm really looking forward to that! SO much has happened in one year! Its hard to believe it! I've gone through 2 journals and am on my 3rd now. Looking back at this year, I remember when I first came. I was really looking forward to studying music and also a little apprehensive because I wasn't sure of the quality level of teaching I would recieve. But in my first semester I only had one class-choir. The leadership was more concerned with my heart toward God than my skill on an instrument. I am so thankful they did it that way! I've had so much happen internally to me than I probably realize. I came here knowing only just a little bit about the supernatural and prophesying and "weird/different" things like that. The Lord has been so good to me in showing how much more there is. How fun He is, how practical and involved He is and wants to be in our lives. I've felt that being here has been like living in a different world than I've ever kenown. God LOVES to talk with me all the time! He loves to speak to me in my dreams and give me strategies. He gives words of knowledge for other people to encourage His Bride.  He pours out His Spirit of intercession so that I carry His heart. He gives me such mercy and grace when I feel underserving, when I have had a terrible day He comforts me.  He's shown me that everything isn't always, "Well, that's how it is" and that more than anything He is jealous for my heart and affections, and He LOVES me so much. More than I even know. He really is for me, He really enjoys me.
Oh, I've been learning so much!
This year I affectionally call the "Detox season".  And right now I'm drawn into the wilderness where I'll be pushed, crushed, taken apart, and washed,  loved, spoken to tenderly, and drawn away. He is so good in His tender mercies. They are new every morning.
In the 1st semester my mind was being blown away by God's big plan for humanity and the earth. I found out that from Genesis to Revelation He has carried the theme of His Son all throughout. I remember when I realized that the Lord spoke to me often through my imagination and by giving me pictures. Such a sweet tender feeling. All the times spent in the prayer room of beginning with struggling to sit in a room for 3 1/2 hours to starting to hear Him, then to enjoying being in His presence and communing with the Holy Spirit, and partnering with Him in intercession.
My Father, my Daddy, He is so good! He is so kind. He's taken me up from the miry clay, and set my feet a-dancing! He  has brought joy to me. He has called me. He is my life, the reason I'm living.
I love the Lord!
I'm so thankful to the Lord for being here this year. It is exactly where I have needed to be! He is romancing my soul and singing over me, His banner over me is Love! He is drawing me away to Him, He is strengthening my soul and I'm becoming confident in His love.
This is not only about me, He feel this way about you too!
The Lord has broken into my heart with tenderness. He has given me grace. I'm learning music- what I've longed to do since highschool! I'm increasing in the knowledge of God, and by God's grace learning to let go.
I've so enjoyed being on a worship team for school and singing His word- that has unlocked scripture to my heart unlike anything else. Engaging in intercession has also been a big change in me. I love it and am so thankful!
Blessed be the name of the Lord! THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU LORD!

Long Comment....sort of

Well... I don't know what I'd do a long comment on... Right now as I type, from the confines of my house, I peer through the open blinds and see for the first time the neighbor across the street has two children, both girls. Didn't know that. Sadly, I don't know any of my surrounding neighbors. Yes, I am just a renter in this house and am not staying here permanently, but it feels a little odd. But then again, I've never been approached by them. We did borrow his shovel one time (we don't own one), leaving a nice note on his door explaining the new position of his shovel.
In other news, I've been listening to C.S. Lewis' "Mere Christianity" on audio cd. I love listening to an accent, and it makes me realize that C.S. Lewis is quite sarcastic and witty with his words- unless that is the voice 'actor' or whatever the title would be. I feel like it is quite similar to Pride and Prejudice, Jane Austen time-period style, but with less formalities and talk of propriety. But quite similar. Even typing this I am thinking this in an accent, British of sorts. Speaking of British accents have I mentioned some that have thrown me off?  I have come across 2 people who are NOT white with British accents. Indeed these 2 have lived in England for some time. One is a Korean, the second is African American. It is incredibly lovely and excellent to hear them, they are some of my favorite people to listen to, not solely because of their accent, but these guys are SO IN LOVE WITH JESUS and have loads of revelation; definetly friends of the Bridegroom.

Well, I love my house and this community, I am astounded and sooooo thankful to the Lord for where He has put me! To be able to talk everyday about what the Lord showed us this day, and what He has been telling us. His mercies are new every morning. Jesus is soo good!  I am stirred and provoked to go deeper in the Lord all the time by my lovely roommates, and together we run after Him together. My teachers are incredibly helpful in small things such as format of Harp & Bowl, social things in the model and etc. Today in class we talked about the model and how to have the least social traffic.

Cool.. I just heard a song a friend of mine recorded using my guitar. Makes me feel special, but I need to turn the highs down on my guitar a little. But still, my guitar soundsawesome! Thanks Dad for choosing such a good sounding guitar with me! I miss you and playing guitar and piano with you!!!!!! We should write songs together.
I'm setting a goal: this summer I am going to write one song a week! I'M SO EXCITED! Its gonna be great! Lord, make me your songwriter!

This week is GBF week (Global Bridegroom Fast) so classes are cancelled, which gives me a couple hours of free time this week! THANK YOU JESUS!
Well, this seems like a pretty good rant post.
Much love to you!
Get ready, Jesus is coming!
Blessings!
JOY!