Into the Wilderness

Well!! I wrote a song! This is a testimony to God's goodness, because I had thought I had "writers' block" of some sorts since middle school when it came to song writing. Really I had songs pouring from my soul, but  I had believed lies that I couldn't write songs, that theyall were going to be bad etc. I had to push through! But I flung those demons off my pencil by God's goodness and will be writing songs and songs and songs and songs!! Praise God! So here is a rough draft of one song. Too bad you can't here it but here are the lyrics

Into the Wilderness (Song of Solomon Ch. 2 & 3)

In my adultery, in my idolatry, you keep coming after me
You are faithful to me.
My beloved one, You've captured my heart and now
I cannot find you.
You are asking me to move beyond this tree, you said to Me,
"Rise up, my love, and come away"
but I stayed
"The winter is past, the rain is gone, flowers appear on the earth"
But I was afraid of the darkness

Now I'm searching for you x2 the one I love

This is it, valley of decision
Forsake it all to gain You
Or cling to these false comforts
Fleeting and Meaningless
x2

I run into the wilderness
You lead I'll follow
I run into your name
I give it all away to be with You
Oh Jesus, You are everything
I give it all away to be with You
Oh Jesus, You are everything,
you have all I need
I cannot bear to be apart from You
      Come and lead this stubborn lamb
     take me gently by the hand
I long to be with You

bridge
  Do not scorn love, love is the only way
Jesus took the cross, laid down His life for us
Do not scorn love, love is the only way
In this, while still sinners, He proved His love for us

He became a man and walked with us
He's jealous for our love
He went to death and back for us
He's jealous for our love
He's the Bridegroom thats coming for His Bride like the sun
He's jealous for our love.


commentary:
When I wrote this song originally I was going to write a song on Psalm 23. It turned into this after reading a book called Silent songs of worship (ironic I know) by my instructor Dr. Terri L. Terry. Also having taken a class on Song of Solomon played a role too (that was in 1st semester) But I just finished reading a chapter titled, The song of the Wilderness. To lean on Him, to get rid of my own selfish nature I must die in the wilderness. After all we are called to pick up our cross dail. If I want to be a forerunner like John the Baptist then imitating his lifestyle would be a good start He spent loads of time in the wilderness before he started his ministry. Just him and God.  Reading that reminded me of the Shulamite maid when the Beloved invites her to come with him to the mountains to which she replies
Until the day breaks
      And the shadows flee away,       Turn, my beloved,
      And be like a gazelle
      Or a young stag
      Upon the mountains of Bether. (S.O.S. 2:17)
Basically those shadows scare me, you go on without me.  Then in ch. 3 she is so lovesick she looks for him.
I hope you are blessed upon reading this. This expresses my heart towards the Lord in his invitation to come away with him. And boy is He good to me! Upon just saying 'yes' he is overwhelmed with love for me